Is it nap time yet???

Ok so I know its 100% normal but I feel like the most tired person in the world lol!!! I go to bed tired I wake up tired I try to push though the day tired! I wake up and think how many hours untill I can come back!!! I know this is the part of pregnancy I forget about and its hard for me I love to sleep lol. I know so many have it way harder being so very sick so I feel terrible about complaining about being tired!!!! Really I shouldn’t complain at ALL!!!! I wanted this and its SOOOO worth it. But yep I’m still ready for bed lol. I’m also starving when I wake up!!! I never really eat breakfast and as soon as I get up I think man Im still tired but if I get up I can go eat!!! Lol today I went down stairs for a yummy blueberry muffin and wouldnt you know Ricky ate it!!! He’s such a jerk took it right out of baby jollys mouth lol. So on my way to work I stoped at bread co for a pumpkin bagel (delish)!!! I’m also not feeling sick any more knock on wood! I guess the meds the dr. Sammons gave me are working!  I go back this week for for my last ultrasound on Friday I’m a little sad. I like seeing baby Jolly every week! It will be nice to not live at the hospital anymore though lol. I will then be fully released to my Dr.  Ill then just be like any other normal pregnant girl going once a month! I want to express again how very lucky I feel to be where I am right now! I have a amazing couple I get to help and things have went so very smooth this whole time! So please don’t think I’m complaining about things I just want to remember just how I was feeling!

Jon and Molly were here!!!

Well we all had a great time when they were here! We Got to see baby Jolly in there he/she wasn’t moving but boy was the heartbeat going!! It was 129 beats per min!! Then we all were able to talk with Dr. sammons. I LOVE her! She gave us a due date of June 11th!! Then we went out for lunch i picked tonys in St Charles on main street. Then we waked around and chatted. I have been getting super nausea!!! I never had that with my kids! Dr.Sammons gave me some pills to help so far no luck lol. I woke up last night at 3:00 thinking I was going to throw up every where! Gross Ricky went and got me some water and I finally fell back asleep. So far today I feel ok. So let’s all pray I don’t get sick!!!! I don’t know how normal girls do it getting sick everyday! Dr. Sammons did say it was most likely because of all the meds I’m on. So I’m hoping when I get off them ill be better! So next Friday will be one more ultrasound then I get to go to normal once a month check ups!!!

Only two more days!!!

I’m so excited for Molly and Jon to be here on Friday!!! I’m sure they are too lol. I had my first customer yesterday ask how far along I was!!!! WHAT…. I said well I am pregnant but it’s very new! He said well how far are you I said well like 6 1/2 weeks!!! Then the man says OH well I thought you were a lot further then that!!! (Men are idiots and jerks) first off way to make me feel huge lol and I won’t be wearing that dress again!!! Also night nausea is in full swing! I’m not throwing up but just super gross feeling. But by the time I wake up I feel fine I just sleep through it! That’s not hard to do since all I want to do is SLEEP. I love any day off so I can nap with the kids!!! My house looks like crap but I don’t care I just keep sleeping lol. So I took a picture of myself so you can all see my huge fat baby bump this man called me out on lol.

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Ultrasound!!!!

Today was our first ultrasound the skype was not working as great as we had all hoped but the lady doing the ultrasound was so sweet and understanding!  I’m sure I was her crazy for the day lol. I have to say I have never had a ultrasound so early and it looked like nothing was in there. I finally got the courage to ask if she could see a baby and thank God she did!!! She showed me and it was so tiny it was super hard to see! It had a heart beat she said it was 120! We were all so happy and excited!!! I have another ultrasound next friday and Jon and Molly are going to make it for this one!!! As soon as my ultrasound was done I went and picked the kids up and came straight home for a nap!!!! I’m always so shocked how tired I am in the first trimester! 

Only TWO days untill ultrasound! !!!

Could this week go any SLOOOOOOWER lol! I’m so excited to see a baby in my belly again!!! Im getting a little anxiety about making sure I can use the face time right on this ipad! If I screw this up it will be awful for Jon and Molly!!! Everyone tells me its super easy and it will be a piece of cake. I just can’t help it this is a huge exciting day for them I want them to experience this like they were right there!!!! Also my butt has been itching and the lumps are getting bigger gross I know! Stop reading if you think that’s gross because I’m also getting all itchy down below from all the vag suppositorys!!!! So last night at shot time Ricky says I have a rash all over my injection site!!!! No wonder it was so itchy! So I told him oh well do the shot we can’t stop now lol. Then we took a pic and sent it to the nurses. One of them said well I don’t know why you would be having a reaction to it now after doing so many… Well did you see the picture? I don’t know why myself but clearly its right on top of where I do shots every other night what else could it be from lol! She just said to use a itch cream and on Friday the Dr may take me off one or the other (shots or suppositorys) gosh I don’t know what’s worse! I need to decide where I would rather be itching I guess lol!!!!

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Just a little info…

I feel like at some point all surrogates have to address the topic of what people think or say. So hear is mine. This is how I feel so far about it. Everyones first comment. How will you feel giving the baby away. Well I’m not giving anything away I’m giving it back. Its there baby not mine. Do I love this baby YES I have loved him/her before I ever met Jon and Molly. Will I be sad to not feel the baby move in me anymore I’m sure I will. But I will also know that this baby is wrapped in its mommy and daddys arms who will love and protect him/her just as I am now. Some people say its wrong. If God wants them to have a baby they would be able too. Well I think your cruel and wrong. Would you tell someone born with out a leg they couldn’t get a prosthetic? That if God wanted them to have two legs they would? I doubt it. God gives us the ability to do all kinds of amazing things with science! Then there are the ones that say they should just adopt there are lots of kids that need loving parents. There are tons of children that need homes. But where are all your adopted kids? Why were you so selfish to pop out 1, 2, 3 or more kids without helping the ones you clearly know need it? Also have you looked into adoption its not as easy as one would think. Its lots of money and time and heartbreak. Then there is still no garentee you get a baby in the end of all that! Then you hear people say what if you want to keep it! (Yes people say that) well if I want to keep a baby I’m more then able to have one with my husband and its much less work on me!!!! Then people will say well I bet its for all the money (like I’m getting millions lol) well your wrong its not! I had to talk with many people and go through lots of screening to make sure I wasn’t after just money or there baby and that I am not crazy lol. If I wanted to just make some extra cash a much easier pain free way would be i dont know a second job!!! As a surrogate you really get no compensation untill your pregnant and thats a ultrasound conformation! So all the shots I give myself and the giant ones in the butt all the pills and patches and vaginal suppositorys yep thats all for nothing! thats all because I love a baby and a family and I want to do this! I truly believe this is my gift to give to the world. God has chosen ME to help a wonderful family. I know this is not something everyone could do. But this is something I know I can. I already feel like I am so blessed to have met such amazing people that I may have never met other then this. I feel blessed that God is allowing me to yet again carry a child and feel the joy that I get from that. I feel blessed that not only is God allowing me to help make a mommy and daddy but I’m helping make grandmas and grandpas and aunts and uncles and cousins too!!! I want to again thank everyone who suppots me and my family and keep praying for us all!!!

Last beta is in!!!!

It was 2, 134!!!! Thats 17dpt I think I’m adding that right lol. The nurse xalled me to say our first ultrasound will be next friday!!!!! Woohooo. But now I’m sad Molly and Jon can’t make it 😦 I’m crushed for her… I know she wants nothing more then to be there but she just can’t so she is sending me her ipad to face time with them so they can still see baby Jolly!!! The nurse said we may or may not see the heartbeat with the first ultrasound it may be the next. Then we have another ultrasound the 25th and they will be able to come for that one so were all so excited!!! I’m also having my first craving I think green olives I can’t get enough just thinking about them makes my mouth water lol. Also I was starving today by lunch time I couldn’t wait to eat lol!!!

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